Shadow in the Light

By Akari

Chapter 1: Into The Deep

He didn't remember when the beatings began.

Nor did I.

There was no reason behind it all, just mindless beatings for the silliest of things.

You didn't always live that way. It wasn't always like that...

"Ryou."

But that was the past.

This was now.

I cuffed you roughly across your left cheek, almost amused as you staggered back from the sink. You stood there; mind slowly registering that you were hit.

Hit by your darker other, by me.

"I fucking called you! Why did you not answer?" I snarled, and you looked down.

"I'm sorry... I was thinking..."

Another slap.

This time, soapy hands reached up to touch bruised cheek, tears welling in your chocolate brown eyes.

"Next time," I mutter, grabbing you by the collar.

"Answer me." I let go, walking out of the kitchen. You grabbed your neck, gasping for much-needed air. Your lungs burned, I'm sure, eyes tearing now, cheeks red with embarrassment and shame.

But no matter how long this would go on...

You would not leave me.

And I hated you for it.

"Ryou..." I thought, watching you curl gently as you slept, silver strands of your long hair falling preciously around your face. Your lips parted slightly, a soft sigh escaping your lips as you shifted, resting your head on the couch's armrest.

Look at you... you make me sick with loathing.

How is it, a weak creature like you, makes me feel? Other than hate? I hate how you look innocent for every damn thing.

Ever time I look into those chocolate pools, as you look shamefully at me ... as I smack you around.

And you don't stop me.

Ever.

And I hate you for it.

Because you let me. Because you think that someday I might change. That I might stop.

But I won't. As long as I continue to see you, touch you, I won't.

"Ryou..." You are my curse, my blessing... my everything.

I shake you awake, and your eyes look groggily around.

And then there is that face you give for every time you awaken and find me there.

That look of misery.

Of pain.

Of fear.

Because you know once you wake up, I will be there.

"What's wrong, Bakura?" You whisper, touching my hand softly.

I hate your touch. It's too full of warmth and love... and light. I am darkness. I am the shadow in your light, but yet you seem to think that you can change me with the love in your heart.

But you are wrong. Dead wrong.

"Get the hell out of here. School will start soon." I mutter, and your eyes soften for only a moment.

"Arigatou, Bakura-kun." You whisper gratefully.

And here I thought I was supposed to slap fear into the damn boy. I believe received the opposite effect.

You were ready in only mere minutes, walking down the steps slowly, your eyes wouldn't look into mine.

"And do not be late, Ryou. Don't make me come out and get you." I yell after him, closing the door behind him as he left.

But somehow I wished him to run back through the door, hug me, kiss me goodbye, and run back out.

But instead I sit on this couch, and wait...

Wait for him to return to me...

It's 3:24, now.

I feel I must hurry home, quickly if possible.

Bakura-kun will be angry with me.

That's nothing new.

I don't know what I do to make him so wrathful with me. I wish he could stop...

He's hurting me...

Finally, I make it to the front door, but the door hasn't even been knocked upon, finding Bakura staring angrily in my direction.

"Where the fuck have you been?!" He yells, grabbing me by the collar, wrenching me into the house before smacking me severely across my face.

"I came home as fast as I could!" Big mistake. I shouldn't have yelled at him.

"You little bitch! How dare you raise your voice at me!" His eyes hold a murderous glint to them.

I think I've broken his sanity because he is hitting me against the wall.

It hurts... so very much... but what can I do?

I can only say nothing...

And if I am quiet enough, he will eventually stop...

But he's... not goin to.

Is he?

"Bakura-kun..." I utter, and you pause, your fist high above my face, my hand finding the one closed around my collar.

For a moment, you seem to flinch at the touch, but at least the beating has stopped.

"I-I'm sorry..."

And my blood ran cold as you gave a maliciously insane smile, your grip growing tighter. Suddenly your lips are on mine, ravenously biting and nipping for entrance.

I'm scared... so scared...

Your tongue enters my mouth, and somewhere along the way I moan, my body betraying me as you grab me with a rough appreciation I didn't know you had.

You shove me roughly to the floor, lying on top of me as you pull at the zipper of my trousers.

I struggle for mere minutes, until I feel the crushing weight of you on top of me. Suddenly I am weak, letting your fingers work at the zipper to my pants.

Sooner or later, I am half-naked... not knowing how... not knowing when, the only thing covering me is my t-shirt.

You truly are merciless as you spread my legs wide, a chuckle escaping your lips.

You rip through me, and it took everything not to scream as you fucked me senseless.

It hurts... so damn much...

But something comes, something I did not expect to feel...

Pleasure.

Pain.

Ecstasy.

Curse my body, despite my rage, I am enjoying this... but why?

I feel sick... so very sick...

A sweet pressure is building within me, filling me, so perfectly, as though you belonged inside me.

"You're... beautiful..." You grunt into my ear, and I come at the very words alone.

I scream into my arm, biting my lip as you come inside me, collapsing on me, kissing the back of my neck.

I felt like I wanted to die.

You used me for your own sick pleasure, but it matters not to you.

I feel...

I...

Author's Comments:

This is teh first part to "Shadow in the Light"! Yeah, Yeah, originally I made it a oneshot, but to ensure I have people's attention, I will keep it in the suspense zone! XD REVIEW MY PRETTIES! cackles -.-

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